i want to die

I beat my record, I haven't thought of you in so long
then you popped up on my Facebook page
your name and picture
a picture says a thousand words
I wonder if I will ever find the right ones

WHERE WILL YOU GO ECHO!?!?!

*holding back tears*

bite your lip

show no fear

But....where will I go!?!?!?!?

grab a bag

stash it

in a gym locker

go from friends house to friends house

couch hoping? 

whatever

I hope no one gives a crap about you anymore either
That way you Know what it feels like

I am not ok

Little voices

do you want to stay a fat ass or do you want to dance??
Our future is in your hands
you where born petite
you have small bones
the rest is just fat
you eat to much

and its true

trying to loose 50 lb
thanksgiving didnt help :////

The Boy Who Fell Off a Bridge

you
dated her
she was
the sound
 to your step
the shine
to your smile
o my dear
poor baby couldn't handle it
let you go

running
to me
gave you alternative music
you ran with it
you worshiped me
all-knowing
till
i spun
distracted
tangled
in my own mess
sent you flying
scream-o music
my darling boy

wanted
to mosh
be violent
worship the devil
(if there is such a thing)
"NO!" I screamed
from behind bullet proof glass
"DON'T GIVE IN!" my words left no mark
as you scrambled to be a stero type
fell in line like a blind lemming

No caring look
just vacant fog
no longer enchanted by my smile
those conversations gone
the Stoner girl in my place
I'd throw a blunt off a bridge
let her fall
just to get you back
so I could have my best friend
to talk to
one last time