fat fish in a tiny bowl

its like
being that fish
the fat ugly fish
the one everyone has
as a little kid
in the
too-tiny-but-will-make-do
bowl
that fat fish
swimming in usless circles
i am that fish
and all day
people look
my family watches
everytime
im not asleep
im scrutinized
but then, nothing is safe
up
down
by the way
i still hate
myself
that will NEVER go away
so just give up
stop wasting your time
because we all know
that fish will die
no matter how much you feed it.

so far i have lost 4 pounds, i get weighed again tomorrow @ the clinique my goal is to drop another 10 cross your skinny little fingers for me you lovlies!