you
where my everything
my
thinspo
motivator
comforter
love of my life
no,
for once your name
is not
Mia
I'm
to  imbarassed that
you'll really see it
if i say it here.
you came for me
every time
i pushed
and pulled you
you kissed me
reached for me
pouted
wanted me
till i pushed
to hard
and pushed you
away

you stopped
wanting
reaching
waiting
coming for me
i have learned to be strong again
to stand
alone
eyes cautious
arms crossed
secretly missing
being wrapped up
in someone else

four months
and no texts
emails
pictures.
I am alive
getting healthy
raising my gpa
dancing
drawing
swimming
better than ever

four months
and
i am
just fine.