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i feel so depressed and bad right now . My first binge in over  a month and it was massive . Its so gross. I got the food out of my system (laxitives) and then my mom made pancakes this moring. I ate too many . no more food today . Just laxitives. Gosh i feel like such a fat faliure . :(((((
i want to purge so bad,but i know i can't. I'm sticking 2 300 cal 2mrrw . I deserve it. I'm such a fat ass failure .