forever nothing

it'd be so much easier to die
so i wouldn't have to fake anything ever again
but i don't want to be one more girl that died
in the paper
on the news
'so young'
'so full of hope'
'a waste'
more like a relief
from everything
but i can't
i cant be
just one more girl
that stabs herself
one more that goes missing
that overdoses
because that leaves me as a forever nothing
nothing
but rotting in the ground
to be forgotten
by everyone