She's ready to try and live her life, she's ready to wake up from a dream a nightmare a horror fest and realize it was just that, a dream.

I hurt my back, its out and it hurts like a mofo to sit for a long time, I'm not allowed to dance, I almost had my slits too. The lists for dance class's go up monday I'm so nervous. It's pretty competitive at my school because there are a lot of great dancers. Iwant to be the best dancer one day. Swim team ended this week but i couldn't swim because of my back. I feel sooooo fat i've been eating so much and i'm really mean because of that but sometimes i look at myself and realize I've smiled, I've laughed and thouroly enjoyed myself a little and truthfully i really need that. I'm 15 I shouldn't want to die, I shouldn't hate myself, I shouldn't be afraid. I want to swim, to DANCE, to SING, SMILE, I want to live.