binges

binged today and i dont think i'll be able to stop .
binged friday too , at my aunts birthday

will i ever stop? :(

Deathwish

I want to die.
I'm 15 and a half and I WANT to die.
I'm a sick person.
It'll all just be easier if i'm dead.
Hmm.. then I'd be free....

please let me die...

That shitty poops we call relationships

I never mentioned that me and The Boy broke up. It was really hard on me be my fault I guess.
Sometimes I would just think ' i miss my trigger" Really??? What kind of sick twisted person am I!!? It's true though, since the day I've met him he's been my trigger, my yardstick and when we date my everything. He's pretty much the skinniest person I know and he'd poke me or give me looks and that drove me crazy and simply drove me. Do I miss him? Sometimes. Ok yeah I do.
I'm currently talking to my close friend, The Boy absolutley hates him because me and him have always had chemistry and I like him. And he likes me back and I get to see him tomorrow and most likely he'll hold me, kiss me hello and I'll walk him to his summer courses were he'll introduce me to his friends as his girlfriend.
Because...... thats what I am I guess ^_^
When I told the boy he Defriended me on facebook. I get why hes mad since I told him that I could never ever date this friend and I am. But really??? I mean, He didn't want me.

BALLET FOR HER ROYAL FATTI

Tomorrow I have my first ballet class, I'm taking it for technique purposes that and I can't live without some form of dance constantly being in my life.  I'm pretty intimidated though, in one of the classes ( I can have two classes a week, not bad.) there are mostly younger children. I'm 15, I'm not a child. And they're all thin, its also weird because the teacher that we met about admitions is short. Like shorter than my family short. We're pretty damn short my dad's only 5'7 and my mum is 5'1 . They're also all skinny.

I can't think like this, I WANT TO DANCE. I WANT TO BE A DANCER. So I can't care about things like that I'm working on loosing the weight and putting on the muscele and I haven't purged.

Wish me luck

XOXO
-Echo

you
always hold me
Smile
tell me
you look gorgeous
your beautiful
did you
fall from heaven?

no
i didn't
but apparently
i'm just what you need
and you make me smile
in your eyes
i do
No wrong
Your always here
and that
has never been there

Ribs= Beauty

When you start loosing enough weight that when you lye down or strech out your ribs poke out, I want to be that thin. I want to be the tinny girl

SICK-NESS FOR MY SUMMER,Mexican Hater Cheerleader Joins lation polulated waterpolo team in an atempt to ruin my sanity

Naturally i'm a sick sweaty, sleepy mess over my first week of summer break. All i wanted to do was go to the gym. But the plus side is i'm not hungry. Hardly ever. only a couple bites here and there and then i'm full and done.

I can't wait to start running and dancing and swimming. I also need to lift weights. Theres a new fire being fueled behind my factory de Crazy. A girl. yep. That one girl that you know since middle school. the attention whore, who needs to get in your way. Shes skinny and tall and she thinks she could model but she really looks like shes having some orgasim that belongs to an animal in a zoo. the ape pen for sure. Well that cheerlead bee-otch decided she didn't have enuff power on the squad so shes invading my beloved water polo and swim team!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she wants one of the hardest, top possitions there is. I hope she gets trampled. My friend says not to worry because i'm a returner and she thinks i'll make varsity and wont have to see any of the girls my age. Pray for me. p.s She also doesn't like Latinos, and waterpolo is like 93% latino girls!!! You don't like us moves states or something cause we're not going anywhere.